God revealed to me recently that I'm a runner. And I'm not talking running for exercise. I run emotionally from hard situations. There have been times when I run physically, for example, I went to Hong Kong for a month after my mom died and I didn't want to come back. Now I know that I run from emotion and turn to food or I turn away from food trying to gain control over one situation when I feel out of control in another situation.
God made us complex human beings but He wants to reveal to us who we are and more importantly who we are in Him. If we aren't leaning on Him for EVERYTHING it's hard for us to see what God is trying to reveal to us. I am so thankful that God is revealing so much of my heart to me through this weight loss/ food addiction journey. The spiritual food I'm getting from the Lord is rich and delicious and I pray that it will stick and lead to maturity.
In 4 weeks, as of Sunday, I've lost 8.5 pounds. I'm so flipping happy about that! I feel smaller which is wonderful. I feel more in control of my life which is good and I feel like I recognize when I want to turn to food for comfort. As an example, I was mad over a situation last night and when I returned home, I wanted to eat chocolate but I wasn't craving it. I wanted it for comfort. I didn't eat. My sister called, we talked about the situation and I ended up organizing my dvd's. <--don't know why. But realizing I wanted food for comfort in the middle of a situation is a GARGANTUAN step for me!
I'm stupid excited about what God has in store for me.
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